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………….but………

Posted in essence, hope, It Matters To Me, It Matters To Us, life, Not Alone by 1choice on August 7, 2009

Empty!

It hurts it hurts so bad..it hurst so much…to much… to feel …to much to say…but …u’r not here anymore to listen..u’r not here..and I don’t want u to come back!..Please…..stay!..stay in u’r world..stay ..out of my life!

I loved u…..what am I saying..to who am I lieing..i still love u….but why????

To much feeling…..to much saying..to much…much to much…of everything!!

It always was this way with..u “to much”…..everything was to much..i guest this is why I love u..i still do….like a crazy person…like a crazy wemon…I STILL DO!!

U  always used to ask……where will we end up one day…..where we will be…..where this love will take us…but u know usually when 2 peopel that love each other say “US”…it should be only 2 people……..and that was why I loved u….u always made me forget..u are not free…like I was the ONLY ONE…but…this big BUT…after it SHE …comes..!!!

Everyday I wake up..and said  “Today I will tell him to go.  .today it will be the end..today ..today..today..”..but this today never happened till now….till I realized..i’m distroing everyones life..mine …..u’rs…and..her’s..!!!!

“I love u ..my life…my air…my everything”….i love u too…u really are my everything…..cause now I’m EMPTY…real EMPTY…….no life …no smile…no anything!!!!U weren’t mine…was not my right..to love u….was not my right…to let u belive in “US”..like that..! I cant share…..u ..know…maybe  not everytime in life we should ask..”all or nothing”..but in LOVE..we should..cause we all have the right..to be loved… in that special way…without fear…without second thought….without regrets…without ..thinking of tomorrow!

So love..here I am lost without u…thinking of tomorrow…but liveing in yeasterday..and u know… TIME..heals… TIME.. heals everything I KNOW….and it will  heal  both of us..will heal but..will not STOP me from loveing U…”u my love”!

Life is not fair..not right…  but we live with IT… ..cause we have no choise but to fight…..to fight….and fight….and to SURVIVE!!So even if today…..i’m still liveing in yeasterday…maybe ..tomorrow…I will live..in the day after tomorrow……

I LOVE UUUUU!!!!….BUT……..

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  1. Invizibilul said, on August 27, 2009 at 11:32 am

    life is not about the final destination, it’s a journey, remember to enjoy the journey


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